Sleepless

I can't sleep. Throughout the night, I toss and turn...never quite finding comfort. You see, I just have so many burning questions in my mind that I can't shut down long enough to relax and actually fall asleep. I try to stop thinking about them, but they continue to keep me alert and in a state of quasi-panicked insomnia, no matter what I do.

The burning, poignant questions I speak of include some that are centered around my personal life, as follows:

"Have I done enough to prepare for medical school?"
"Will I get through the next 42 days without doing something stupid to mess up my own graduation?"
"Which medical school will I end up in?"
"Will my husband end up happy when we move?"
"Am I smart enough to take on the USMLE Steps?"
"How can I ever repay my family for what they've done for me?"
"Am I strong enough to overcome my overwhelming fear of failure?"
"How will I ever pay for tuition?"
"If something happened to me, would my family be alright?"

Beyond these self-centered questions are some which ponder the world as a whole:

"How long will we be at war?"
"Will the cure for cancer be found in my lifetime?"
"Why can't we feed the hungry, when we have so much surplus?"
"Will there ever truly be world peace?"

Yet, amidst all these intense questions, one query plagues me more than all the others. The issue is so unfathomable; the mystery so cruel that this--THIS enigma is the one that keeps me up later at night than the sum of all the others combined. The mere existence of this question proves beyond a shadow of a doubt that there is, in fact, no justice in this country. Yes, you may have guessed it already. The question burned into my mind is this:

In the name of all that is good and pure in this world, HOW DID THIS SQUIRMY LITTLE WEIRDO MAKE IT TO THE TOP 10?!?!?!

Does ANYBODY have a GOOD reason? If I hear that it's his hair one more time, I am seriously going to scream. I know it's not because he's handsome; looking at him makes me want to do this. And, no. He can't sing, so don't even try it. I look like this every time he opens his mouth.

Please, as someone who may save your life someday, I beg you: STOP VOTING FOR SANJAYA SO I CAN GET SOME SLEEP!!!!!